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September 15, 2007
21:19
If Attacked Fight Back
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Still Alive and Kicking

Ramadan Kareem
Mbarak 3alekum Al-Shahar
August 13, 2007
0:33
Sometimes I Have Wanted To Throw You Off
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Sometimes I have wanted
to throw you off
like a heavy coat.

Sometimes I have said
you would not let me
breathe or move.

But now that I am free
to choose light clothes
or none at all

I feel the cold
and all the time I think
how warm it used to be…

-A poem by Vicki Feaver
August 09, 2007
1:23
Top 10 Free Wallpaper, Fonts and Icon Sources
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Lifehacker posted this really cool list of sites for free wallpapers, fons and icons. It’s for those of you who like to spice up their desktops.

10. Pixelgirl (wallpaper and icons)

9. Dual Screen Wallpapers

8. Veer designer wallpaper

7. exljbris (Fonts)

6. Crystal Clear icons

5. Windows Vista wallpaper pack

4. TypeNow.net TV/Movie/Brand-themed fonts

3. Public Domain Icons

2. InterfaceLIFT (wallpapers)

1. Fonts 500 (fonts)
August 08, 2007
19:27
New iMacs, iLife ‘08 and iWork’08
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Now thats what I want for my birthday (Hint..Hint)

Apple announced yesterday an update to their iMac line of desktop computers. I was especially happy to finally see an update to their iLife software suite. In addition they updated Keynote and Pages and added a Spreadsheet application to their iWork suite of productivity software.

I want all of the above.

More here
August 06, 2007
12:26
Video: Guys And Dolls
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I have always tried to be non-judgemental. I have always embraced other people’s choices as just that… choices. You know, not everyone is going to live like I do, or think along the same lines… but I can’t help but think thatthis is really creepy and quite sad.

“For some people finding a partner in life can be difficult.. 10 years ago, a small factory in California began making alternative partners….

Watch Documentary here: NSFW

This is a really distrubing documentary so you have been warned
11:59
A Better Way Of Reading Online Text
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From Venturebeat:

Did you know our primitive brains weren’t wired very well to read this paragraph?

Scientific research conducted by Walker Reading Technologies, a small Minnesota startup that has been studying our ability to read for the last ten years, has concluded that the natural field of focus for our eyes is circular, so our eyes view the printed page as if we’re peering through a straw.

And a very bad-behaving straw at that, because not only do our eyes feed our brain the words we’re reading, they’re also uploading characters and words from the two sentences above and below the line we’re reading.

Every time we read block text, we’re forcing our brain to a wage a constant subconscious battle with itself to filter and discard the superfluous inputs. This mental tug of war slows reading speed and diminishes comprehension.

Walker Reading Technologies’ CEO and co-founder, Randall Walker MD, believes he and his team have developed a solution with a product called Live Ink that allows online publishers to improve reading speed and comprehension. Live Ink works by analyzing written language for meaning and language structure, and then applies algorithms that reformat the text into a series of short, cascading phrases. It breaks complex syntax into simpler syntax, which makes it easier for the brain to absorb the material.

See Demo Here
August 04, 2007
17:05
“I know: women suffer; for love means being alone”
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Most people have (with the help of conventions) turned their solutions toward what is easy and toward the easiest side of the easy; but it is clear that we must trust in what is difficult; everything alive trusts in it, everything in Nature grows and defends itself any way it can and is spontaneously itself, tries to be itself at all costs and against all opposition.

We know little, but we must trust what is difficult. That is a certainty that will never abandon us; it is good to be solitary, for solitude is difficult; that something is difficult must be one more reason for us to do it.
-From “Letters To A Young Poet” by Rilke
August 02, 2007
23:29
5 Common Diet & Exercise Myths
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Myth No. 1: By following a proper diet and exercise program, you can turn body fat into muscle.
False. Fat and muscle are two separate entities. You must burn fat and build muscle.

Myth No. 2: As you age, your metabolism declines and there is nothing you can do about that.
False. While it’s true our metabolism naturally slows down by about 2-5% per decade after age 40, there are plenty of things we can do to fight back.

Myth No. 3: It’s better to eat 6 mini meals than 3 squares.
False.This entirely depends on your personal lifestyle and food preference …

MYTH No. 4: It’s OK to sub a fattening dessert for a meal now and then
True

MYTH No. 5: Health professionals recommend people eat 5 to 9 servings of produce a day. It is incredibly hard and unrealistic to work in 9 servings of produce a day!
False. Nine servings may seem like a lot, but a serving isn’t all that large. In the vegetable category, one cup of leafy greens, ½ cup raw or cooked veggies, or 6 ounces of juice count as a serving; for fruit, it’s one medium piece, ½ cup fresh, frozen or canned, ¼ cup dried, or 6 ounces of juice.

from MSNBC
August 01, 2007
18:22
Storm
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I really want to write something down. But just can’t get myself to do it.. instead I will share this song.
A little cheesy… Yes maybe.. but it works for me.
July 29, 2007
17:28
1,500 Prisoners Do The “Thriller”
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Here is a video of more than 1,500 filipino inmates walking around as zombies and dancing, re-enacting the video of MJ’s Thriller

Somehow acting like the damsel in distress in a prison doesn’t sound like a good career move.
July 28, 2007
11:58
Time May Not Exist
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I couldn’t have come up with a better headline for my first post in a long Time. The headline comes from an interesting article in discover magazine. Here is an excerpt:

The problem, in brief, is that time may not exist at the most fundamental level of physical reality. If so, then what is time? And why is it so obviously and tyrannically omnipresent in our own experience? “The meaning of time has become terribly problematic in contemporary physics,” says Simon Saunders, a philosopher of physics at the University of Oxford. “The situation is so uncomfortable that by far the best thing to do is declare oneself an agnostic.”

“We never really see time, We see only clocks. If you say this object moves, what you really mean is that this object is here when the hand of your clock is here, and so on. We say we measure time with clocks, but we see only the hands of the clocks, not time itself. And the hands of a clock are a physical variable like any other. So in a sense we cheat because what we really observe are physical variables as a function of other physical variables, but we represent that as if everything is evolving in time.”

more here

You see this is great news for me. I have a great excuses for missing deadlines at work.

There is no such thing as time, all I have to do is move the hands of my watch backwards and all my deadlines have been met

Misguided Conclusions
June 07, 2007
1:50
PayBack
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I’m on the outside
I’m looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
’cause inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
0:58
Odd Post
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I have had great difficulty writing anything original on my blog. This affliction isn’t exactly writers block, rather it feels like I have more to say than words can express. Odd!

There is so much going on around me that it is really hard for me to write about any single issue. So let me just run the list of a few.

1. Work : Great, no complaints really.. sometimes it can be overwhelming but on the whole I would say I am liking it. Really, things are working out for me at work.

2. Family: This is where it starts to get complicated. Some I am cool with, others I can’t stand… still others are trying to get in the way of plans I had made for myself… which kind of sucks really! I like my family, but they are just too damn demanding at times.

3. Love: I can’t believe I just wrote that word. Like it even exists ! Everybody wants something from someone.. that’s the conclusion I have arrived at. Cynical? maybe.. I just feel like being cynical for a week. I need a break from being such an idealist.

4. Traffic : The best solution is to have a great selection of music in your car.

5. Friends: The only people that make any sense to me. Honestly, I have come to the conclusion that there are only a dozen or so sane people in this world, and I kinda know most of them. Most of the other people walk around with a spikey hairdo all over the place. They are just extras that were put there by God to remind me of how blessed I am.

6. Allergies: I am allergic to dust.. I think.. because I can’t explain why my nose is runny all the time.

7. Odd conversations : I have had a ton of those. You know, the kind where you end up saying something you are not supposed to.. and then all goes quiet, until one of your cousins saves you by saying “great soccer game yesterday”.

So there.. I wrote something down. A list of totally unrelated comments.

… odd post
June 02, 2007
21:29
I Am A Wanderer
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Once more I am a wanderer, a pilgrim, through the world. But what
else are you! - Goethe

Listen To Next Year here.
June 01, 2007
22:55
The Diary Of Jane
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Something’s getting in the way
Something’s just about to break
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
8:06
My Account Has Been Permanently Disabled
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My Youtube account has been permanently disabled. I don’t understand how youtube could do that with no prior warning. I had tons of homemade tutorials and videos that have now been permanently erased.. with no prior warning.

I’m really upset. Those videos took a lot of hardwork making and some are even fun to watch. I need to figure out a way of getting them to re-enable my account. If there were some videos taken from TV shows… well then remove those, but don’t erase my entire account!

I also hate the word Permanent.
May 31, 2007
6:50
Abandoning The World Of People
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“….if there is nothing you can share with other people, try to be close to Things; they will not abandon you; and the nights are still there, and the winds that move through the trees and across many lands; everything in the world of Things and animals is still filled with happening, which you can take part in; and children are still the way you were as a child, sad and happy in just the same way - and if you think of your childhood, you once again live among them, and the grown-ups are nothing, and their dignity has no value.”

-From Letters To A Young Poet - By Rainer Maria Rilke

Listen To Dirty Secrets Here
May 30, 2007
1:24
There Are Some Battles I Just Can’t Win
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What are you doing to me?
I’m so into you,
and the hardest part is knowing that I’ll never follow through

Trip
May 29, 2007
19:59
This Is Perhaps The Only Reason Why I Will Buy A Wii
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May 26, 2007
23:07
Nothing To Be Gained But Disaster
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So leave me be,
I dont want to argue,
I just get confused and I come all undone.

If I agree well its just to appease you,
cause I dont remember what were fighting for.

Listen To Time here.
May 25, 2007
10:02
There Comes The Strangest Moment
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There comes the strangest moment in your life,
when everything you thought before breaks free-
what you relied upon, as ground-rule and as rite
looks upside down from how it used to be.

Skin’s gone pale, your brain is shedding cells;
you question every tenent you set down;
obedient thoughts have turned to infidels
and every verb desires to be a noun.

I want— my want. I love — my love. I’ll stay
with you. I thought transitions were the best,
but I want what’s here to never go away.
I’ll make my peace, my bed, and kiss this breast. . .

Your heart’s in retrograde. You simply have no choice.
Things people told you turn out to be true.
You have to hold that body, hear that voice.
You’d have sworn no one knew you more than you.

How many people thought you’d never change?
But here you have. It’s beautiful. It’s strange.

a poem by Kate Light

Listen to Sweet Surrender here
May 23, 2007
20:47
Innocent Oblivion
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I stopped reading the papers 6 weeks ago….

I am a much happier person. The other day while I was walking in a shopping mall, I stopped for a minute to see what was being broadcast on the TV screens on display. I noticed pictures of wounded soldiers being carried in an urban battlefield. It could have been Iraq, Lebanon or somewhere else close by. It didn’t really matter.. It was just plain sad.

There I was strolling around with a friend, while other men were taking up arms and killing each other.

I stopped reading the papers 6 weeks ago…

I no longer want to understand why all the unnecessary killing is taking place. It never made any sense to me. I rather not know.. I just want to get on with my life, innocently oblivious to the world around me.
May 18, 2007
11:49
I Won’t Be Buying A Macbook… Just Yet.
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Apple has updated it’s 13′ Macbooks. I have always wanted to get myself one. Now with the improved speed performance and memory upgrades I am this close to buying one. ….but

I am planning to wait it out just a bit longer. Apple is planning to hold its yearly WWDC conference mid-June. That’s where all the big announcements are slated to take place. I want to wait and see what else they have planned before throwing some more cash their way.

Things I am waiting to hear about:

1. New iLife and iWork software suites (they usually come for free on any new computer)
2. Leopard (rumor has it that it won’t be released just yet… sometime in October is what I hear)
3. A better Apple TV (please Apple.. this one needs to be hacked to become close to functional)
4. New iMac’s (yes I hear there is an update coming soon.. but I am only in the market for a laptop)

For those of you considering buying any new Apple product… don’t just yet. WWDC is a month away and you may end up buying a system today that will be outdated next month.

Misguided Purchases

P.S. If you are one of those who is considering buying a Dell.. Don’t… That’s sooo last decade.
May 17, 2007
21:43
Walking After You
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If you’d accept surrender, I’ll give up some more.
Weren’t you adored ?

I cannot be without you, matter of fact,
I’m on your back.

If you walk out on me, I’m walking after you.

Download Song here
0:59
Severance
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severance |ˈsev(ə)rəns| : (noun) the action of ending a connection or relationship.

In a flash she knew it all, felt it all. She didn’t shriek, she didn’t fling her fists against the door….All the fight went out of her. She sank to the floor, collapsed into a heap against the door, and that is where she stayed all night. The bare boards bit into her jutting bones, but she didn’t feel the pain. There was no fire and her nightdress was thin, but she didn’t feel cold. She felt nothing. She was broken.

When they came for her the next morning, she was deaf to the key in the lock, didn’t react when the opening door shunted her out of its way. Her eyes were dead, her skin bloodless. How cold she was. They carried her down the stairs as easily as if she was a feather pillow going to be aired. They could have been taking her anywhere and she’d not have fought them. She was lost. Absent from herself. She was nothing, she was no-one. It was just the shell of a person they took to the doctor’s house.

…It was no ordinary separation. Imagine surviving an earthquake. When you come to, you find the world unrecognizable. The horizon is in a different place. The sun has changed colour. Nothing remains of the terrain you know. As for you, you are alive. But it’s not the same living. It’s no wonder the survivors of such disasters so often wish they had perished with the others.

(People) were expecting them the same as they knew before, only separate. And so, initially, they were surprised by their collapse into a pair of lifeless rag-dolls. Not quite lifeless. The blood continued to circulate, sluggishly, in their veins. Their eyes, open during the day, were unseeing, and at night, though their eyes closed, they had no tranquility of sleep. They were apart; they were alone; they were in a kind of limbo. They were like amputees, only it was not a limb they were missing…. but their very souls.

a passage from “The Thirteenth Tale” by Dianne Setterfield

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